I had had a lot of confusion about what the experience of living in the Resurrected Christ, and Supernatural Adoption was. About whether it was a physical death or a spiritual transformation.

As well, similar concerns over an experience I wrote about on another thread, of Jesus dying & a changing of my relationship with Him. But when I look at Phil's comment that Jesus can choose to share his thoughts and experiences with us my concerns and confusion left. That is unless it is expressed to me that what I experienced is not Christian. Then there is an acknowledgement, for me, that I am not journeying the Christian path.

It was possible that Jesus was sharing with me His experience of His physical death before taken me through a spiritual transformation into the Resurrected Jesus. A place of great peace. But also a place where one must be totally surrendered to the Trinity. Every breathe need be a surrender to the will of God.

Mary Sue, peace is of God, and is one of the fruits of the Spirit (Galatians 5: 22-24).

I'm not clear what you're trying to sort out, however -- whether your experience is "Christian" and of the resurrected Christ or something else? We are now on page 6 of this discussion, so maybe you could clarify that again . . . or maybe it's not necessary to know for sure.

I don't recall if you've mentioned meeting with a spiritual director, but that would be a good way to continue to process your journey. See http://www.sdiworld.org for more info and to find a spiritual director in your area if you're not meeting with one already.

Phil
Thank you for your feedback & I do apology for this lengthy process. I can speak to Sister who is a spiritual director. However I don't know if she will know about this type of thing.

I had a long talk with a friend yesterday who has had several years of seminary & is studying to be a spiritual director. Their understanding of what I was asking about looked nothing like what I was talking about.

After we talked I realized that what occurred was a loss of affective ego & a great peace came with this. There were other things also. Like a sadness over
losing something so dear. It is almost like an organic process. There is a certain way that I must live my life or there is great suffering & I'm still dealing with this.

I will read some of your writing about this, as I am able & if there are further issues will take them to the appropriate list.

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Originally posted by Mary Sue:
what occurred was a loss of affective ego

Mary Sue, did you just wake up?

Thank you Derek
I've had a chance to look at your webpage & read
what you have written on it. The way you have written on this subject is in a way I can relate to. Thank you so much for your sharing. Would it be possible to take this discussion over to another thread. Would you like to suggest one?

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Originally posted by Mary Sue:
Would it be possible to take this discussion over to another thread. Would you like to suggest one?

Sure. But I don't know what title you want for the new thread.

Derek I wrote something on the Enlightenment & Christian Spirituality thread.