Ive just come across the site and hoping to find some good info that helps.

Cut the story short, i was a psychic child up until 4 years old but had experiences here and there growing up.
When i was 25 i was suffering depressions, was a bad time in my life and that when it begun.
It started with finding myself talking to these people in my head, i thought i was going crazy but i was seeing visions of my future which turned out correct.
One of my abilities as a child was chronokinesis, this happened again whist having my awakening at 25, it seemed like it swung the door open as it happened.
I have naturally developed psychic abilities in stages since.

In the last year i started having vibrations through my body and tingles over my head, when this started i had to battle allot of fear and block out negative energies, i have manged it know and these vibrations have got stronger.
I have been up and down since end of last year, letting go of stuck emotions and having to deal with all over again, this has caused health issues.

The reason im hear is because im stuck and confused with what ive experienced recently.
It started with my dreams, i was doing allot of releasing and waking in paralysis, my solar plexus was worked on for good few months.
The other week i went for a nap and didnt have chance to even think when a tunnel popped up on my forehead, I felt a hard wack at the top of my back and my heart opened up, as it happened i went through the tunnel for a few seconds and a man with a cloth on his head was looking down on me.
Since this happened i have had visions of myself crying and feel it push up my body, there is no reason for it i just feel the tears as it comes up. Iv also had visions of a man merging with me, i can feel him touching but not physically.

The vibrations stepped up since december last year and i feel like im plugged in somewhere and feel little shots up my back and my palms.

The biggest experience was the other day, i had a nap in the afternoon and fell asleep straight off. I woke within 5 minutes to semi paralysis i could move a little.
I felt my coccyx vibrate and little shoot up my chakras, i noticed my breathing had stopped and tried to gain control but i realised my body was doing y job while a stepped aside. I let the vibration move up and down me and the big raw appeared by me, it got loader and loader and my hard pounded, the vibration in my chest got stronger the the roaring stopped. I started hearing water trickling like a fountain was next to me and trees and birds, there was a faint flute music too and it was really lovely but i questioned it and that when the tunnel appeared again.
I saw a snake with a man, i felt like something was pushing through my throat and moving around my head. I could not see the man properlly but i found myself with this woman who was my spirit guide, she was pointing at this window and through it was water, i could it was a big pool and someone was swimming, she said it was me swimming and that the sound i could here. It made sense when she said it and was back analyzing my vibrations, as i look back it did not make sense.
The waves picked up in my body and was more stronger in my head by my ears, it felt like a hair dryer was inside my head blowing out my earsthe nice noises were still present but could also hear tones changing. It calmed down after 20 minutes and i went to sleep.
All that day and the next i could still feel pressure inside my ears and static. I have also been hearing high pitched noise in my ears 24/7 for 3 months now.
Also to add 11:11 has been appearing since december last year atleast 10 times a day.
Before my last experience i checked the time before having a nap and it was 11:11, i woke after the nap and it was 1:11pm

Hi Daisy,

This all sounds very difficult and confusing. In my experience, kundalini energy can have a riot in the body, throwing up all sorts of junk and connecting us in all sorts of ways to different beings, entities, human and otherwise. The stimulation of psychic centres can be very confusing and for me, the best route is not to pursue any thought, connection or sensation too deeply, but rather surrender it to the loving Source, to Christ who holds us and wants to heal us.

There's a lot of weird stuff going on these days and it's perhaps best not to attach ourselves too much to it. Let it be, and let it pass, then return to the love of God. Maybe try and find a way to be still and know God amid all psychic confusion.

Two things I relate to however. The first is the conversation in your head which turned out to be a vision of your future. I had the same thing during my kundalini experience. For a month or so, as I went to bed, a narrative played out in my head, a story told by my own consciousness, including dialogue, descriptions, all sorts, which turned out to be an audiovoyant vision of the future. I found it all intriguing, but it was really a mental breakdown, albeit one which revealed the multilayered, non linear aspects of consciousness.

The second is the constant witnessing of significant numbers. That was happening a lot to me last year. I don't know what the meaning of each number could be, and I'm not terribly interested in finding out, but it seems to be a type of synchronicity, perhaps indicative of the unity of inner mind and outer energy. Again, it's perhaps not such a good dea to pay it to much heed, because the whole thing, in conjunction with all the weird energy can lead to delusion. Again the best thing is just to surrender it all to God in love and ask him to fill you and surround you with the light and love of Christ, without activating anything yourself.

I hope it works out for you.

Take care.

Hi daisy,

It sounds like things have been very difficult for you for a long time. I like what samson has shared with you about turning to God as the loving Source, "to Christ who holds us and wants to heal us." And I hope you have loving support of family or friends.

Given your report about your breakdown, hearing voices, and seeing things, I'm concerned for you that you may have a thought disorder. Maybe co-occuring with your awakening, or energy work, or the result of extreme stress.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thought_disorder

You may need to be under the care of a doctor or psychiatrist for an evaluation. It's impossible to know without a careful evaluation what is caused by your depression, an 'awakening,' and/ or even by contact with people who manipulate energy.

Some thought disorders can be effectively treated. I have a dear friend who reported much of the same things you describe. She was put on Resperidol and is like a new person. Without the meds, she is disorganized, seeing and hearing things, and not able to function. On her meds, she is in college, gainfully employed, and loves her volunteer job with the elderly. She is delightful woman who loves God and prays the most heart-felt, beautiful prayers.

I realize some people feel it's a bad idea to present yourself to a psychiatrist or psychologist if you think you're experiencing 'normal' kundalini energy, but I don't agree. There are too many interacting factors to consider such as mental health history, trauma, substance use, and current functioning.

Going to occult, energy healers can be very damaging. Medications you can stop if it doesn't work; energy connections with occult 'healers' are not so easy to get rid of.

God's peace and healing be with you.

I really like the advice you gave there Stephen, I can also relate to much of it from my drug and occult days.

I am very well and 100 time the person i was at 25, i over come the depression, i was in a violent relationship and got out, built myself back up.
I had the councelling i needed back the.

Im sure i dont need to be in any care at all.

This is where i find trouble telling my experiences because i get told i have mental problems. Thats why most keep quiet.

I was hoping a little insight into my most revent experience, i do fill myself with light and can deal with negative entities, i like to know what it means

Hi daisy. Yes, it is a risk to share some of one's story, especially others might think it unusual. There's a lot of symbolism in yours, and that's not easy to sort out. I'm also not sure whether your experiences were during dream states, meditation times, or waking consciousness. It would help us to know what kind of spiritual practice you do.

I've had ear pressures and high pitched tone in my ears for years now. The ear pressure I understand in terms of the pressure points in the ear and chi energy flow. The high pitched sound might be tinnitis, which is a very general diagnosis, but often associated with kundalini. I rather enjoy closing my eyes and listening to it at times; the tone can vary, even sounding like thousands of chirping birds or insects at times. It's soothing, so I haven't even discussed it with my Dr. and have lived with it for over 20 years.

The other images you describe have kundalini symbolism, which is from the depths of the unconscious. Call on God to be with you during these times of awakening, and try not to get too caught up in figuring out what all the symbols mean, or the numbers. If there's something you need to know about living your life, God will make this known to you.

I started having out of body experiences at the end of 2010 and at the time i was having dejavu allot and memories of astral travel when i was little.
These memories were coming up doing general daily things, i also remember before birth where i was shown bits of my life. These memories come up when i start obes.
when the memories were coming up they were a couple times a wee. As time has gone on more come back to everyday, the more i remember the more i get these vibrations and visions.
My visions become symbolic daily and for last year iv been learning to understand it.
My dreams started changing and was coming aware in my dreams everynight. I then started having repeated sleep paralysis, it made scared for a few months but i had sleep paralysis one day, i was able to move in and out of paralysis and my head and solar plexis felt like they were electricuted. I read about the rope technique and sat up out my body, everything had moved in my room and could see there is dimensions.

After this one experience my fear disintergrated and i was seeing and feeling spirit physically.
The vibrations picked up more and the buzzing started in my ears.
I was going to bed each night and here someone talking to me, it would come from the high pitch noise i was hearing.
I Started zoning out allot and going lucid when lying down, the sprinkles over my head begun for a while which followed on from my post.

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Originally posted by daisy:
I am very well and 100 time the person i was at 25, i over come the depression, i was in a violent relationship and got out, built myself back up.
I had the councelling i needed back the.

Im sure i dont need to be in any care at all.

This is where i find trouble telling my experiences because i get told i have mental problems. Thats why most keep quiet.

I was hoping a little insight into my most revent experience, i do fill myself with light and can deal with negative entities, i like to know what it means

There's not really going to be anyone here who can give you personal insight into your experience. As Phil said, it has signs associated with kundalini awakening and changes taking place in your energy body. What that essentially means is that there are changes happening "to you" and "by you" that are starting on an physical level and working their way up. Any meaning more than this is up in the air.

Phil asked what kind of spiritual practice you have, if any, and I'd like to know too. Are you a Christian? If not, do you have any religious leanings at all? I ask because there are things you can do to cope with what you have going on, but a lot of what's going to be best for you is going to be determined by your spirituality.

Let me know what your spiritual leanings are and if you do any regular prayer or meditation (and describe it), and there will probably be more to talk about.

Paul

Daisy,

What happened when you were four years old?

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Hi Daisy, you mentioned sleep paralysis. I have had severe sleep paralysis also along with sensations of electrical shocks and feelings of suffocation, and jerking/seizures. I don't know if it was kundalini related or not, as I have had other K symptoms in my life. I did go to a sleep specialist , incl an overnight stay and was diagnosed with sleep paralysis and given medication for it. You might want to consider that.

Katy

I have never really followed a religion, i did few years back meditate to try and understand my visions but i stopped doing it within months.
I do ground and protect myself, i was walking around out in public picking up energy so learnt to keep myself shielded and close my chakras.
I usually take time out on my own to concentrate visualising closing down each one.
There is times when there is spirit near clinging to me, i use my heart chakra and feel the love wrap around them and they go to the light.
There is thoughs spirits that latch on to me and hide away here i do get attacks, when they have attacked i use tornado energy.
Ive read up on things to help but nothing others put seemed to work, i found these where things were natural and my higher self is in control.

To pop-pop question, I was naturally open to spirit and other beings since i was born and was in communication with a woman who was my teacher in the astral. When i was 4 years old my last time i saw her she shown me snips of my future, most of it was not good and could see i had no choice but to live it as there was reason for it.
At the same time my mother was hearing these experiences and was told not to talk about it, from the last glimps the woman shown me i was growing up aware of my physical surroundings and told it was wrong and become more attached to my being i am.
I stopped astral projecting and turned to my mum at 4 years old and asked who i was and why i was here and what for, thats when all communication went till later on, i now remember some things like id never forgot.

I have started to have more confidence in sleep paralysis as now i know what it leads too, i would never take any course of medication to block out any natural thing unless it causes pain.

Why did you stop meditating? Regular meditation will accustom you to watching your thoughts and feelings arise and dissipate without forcing action from you. Some form of meditation is nearly imperative to smoothly handle (mentally and emotionally) the types of experiences you seem to be having.

The topic of the thread suggests you're looking for some kind of explanation or narrative that explains what you've been going through. I could probably tell a story based on what you said that you'd find appealing - about kundalini awakening and becoming fully aware of your "higher self" and your place in the world. But it would be stuff that you already believe, and about which you are just looking for confirmation.

If I were in your position I would visit the nearest Catholic Church in and practice devotion in front of the tabernacle, and just see if anything happens. You don't have to be Catholic to do this. I say this because DEVOTION, i.e. intense love and adoration, is the force that BINDS us spiritually to one another, and it is something that does not have to arise spontaneously, but can be practiced.

The reason I suggest the tabernacle is that Christ, and his Holy Spirit, is the quickening power that brings about transformation to its best possible outcome. You can transform without devotion to Christ, but the road is harder and you usually end up somewhere that is not optimal. Not optimal because the Logos who created you and the world is the one who best meets your needs - when you're weak the process can become more gentle, and when you're strong the process can test you to your limits. This is the formula for optimal growth and transformation, and it's Christ that implements it in your life.

Let us know how it goes either way.

Daisy,

What’s interesting to me, as I read your first and later posts, is that while you seek information to aid your understanding of what you are going through and why you’re ‘stuck and confused’ by your recent experiences you do not seek release or relief from them.

Do you see chronokinesis (and all the other psychic phenomena you witness to) as a gift or a hassle – as a blessing or a curse? Would you want to be free of it all?

If not, why?

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When i first learned meditation i had looked up info on clairvoyance, i closed my eyes one day and keep see this eye staring at me.
I saw it 24/7 there after and came across meditation, i tried it for few months but i was getting nasty visions whilst quieting my mind so i stopped.
I have tried few time since and sometimes get the same thing.
I have realised though that i dont need to put time into meditation as there is times where i would be in the bath or walking the dog, il find im zoning out and clear my thoughts. I try not to make a point in doing meditation but i naturally do daily.

To pop-pops, when my third eye opened up i did want it to go away, but i learned to live with it and its part of who i am now, so with the rest.
If i could go back to when i was not open i would not choose.
Chronokinesis was very natural as i was younger and when it happens its like im remembering my childlike, it made sense then but not so now.
I would not wish to take my abilities away, iv grown stronger as they have developed.

Daisy,

Your reply has been honest! Thank you for that.

Where I am at, I have a hard time understanding what your 'abilities' really buy you. They seem to me like disabilities.

I wish you bluebirds, Daisy.

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