Dear ones,
I encountered a woman, who lived in Mexico for years, had contacts with shamans there, was healed deeply and lived for one year in a tipi (Indian tent). She knows a shaman here in Ostend and it seems that many people receive healing.
Since my pain today again is uncredible, I would do everything to get rid of it. Mindfulness doesn't help much. Jesus prayer neither! However, by looking at google, I again was confronted with a wide diversity of opinions as always on the relation Christianity-Shamanism. Is it pagan, forbidden (Deuteronomy...)? I have been involved with occult practices (a medium, fire walk) before and I don't want to be unfaithful to Christ, but at the same time I realize more and more (through the Orthodox tradition of Mount Athos and perennialism and Christian gnosticism and...) that there is a lot more to being a Christian than most of the (certainly evangelical)Christians know about!I read 'A different Christianity' by Robin Amis, a must-read: http://www.praxisinstitute.net..._christianity.htm!!! and also http://www.amazon.com/Gnosis-E...dition/dp/1872292100 Mouravieff must be very good. I didn't read yet: http://www.cassiopaea.org/cass/mouravieff1.htm
I also start having problems with a strictly devotional approach and attending Eucharist disturbs me more and more because of all these words and words and morals. Do this, do this, but how to do it is something no one speaks of! And I feel that even within Western monastic tradition at least here in Belgium and West-Europe many things are lost. What about consiousness, the struggle with inner demons, creativity, sexuality. It is all so rational! In this sense I feel inclined to go to this shaman. But what do you people think of this? Is my pain (and anger!) probably a result of evil spirits that don't want to let loose?
Again confusion all over the place, since this therapist (primal) in Brussels is also so quiet and just listening after 2 sessions...
I wait for a silent retreat with a Carmelite in October and 8 weeks program of Mindfulness...
Help!
Fred