Thank you Mariposa, for sharing so much of yourself. It sounds like you have been very blessed indeed, and that it has little to do with your external circumstances in life (there are many who have "more" but are not so happy as you sound).

It sounds like Buber has been very influential on your journey. That, too, is rare to find these days. What a wise man in the ways of the Spirit he was, however.

Buber wasn't influential to me - he was the theologian who documented the experience, which was discovered after the fact.